feel

i need a reason to live.

the past few days passed without anything special.

i dun feel anything anymore.

i dun feel excited about the future,
even though i know
a lot is going to happen.

i need a reason to live.

LalalLaala~~~

having a day from hell
that wasn't going so well



sound
straight from the twilight
has me up all night
i can't fall asleep

cause i keep thinking of you

and her


慢慢心痛
没有人发现我和从前不同
你的眼中
看得见另一个人给的感动

心疼比快乐更真实
爱为何那么的讽刺

我存在在你的存在

你挥霍了我的崇拜


以为在你身边那也算永远



可惜不是你
陪我到最后



maybe my love will come back someday

only heaven knows


seems like it was yesterday
when i saw your face

sometimes i wanna call you
but i know you won't be there

even though i really love you

all i know is
imma be ok~



想念是会呼吸的痛

假装多好
我只要
只想要
在拥有一秒
去相信


当昨天的泪
蒸发成我的蓝天



也许我会再遇见你
看你满脸胡渣的笑意
爽朗一如往昔
c'est la vie,
c'est la vie,
c'est la vie.






he's the reason for the tear drops on my guitar...

how could an angel break my heart?

juz to fill up the gaps...

nothing nothing... i juz wanna fill up last week's gap...

ok. so... alot has happened since i last updated my blog.

everyday, something interesting happens.

everyday is surprising.

rmb my last post... if you read carefully, you'll find a line in the end that leaves you wondering. (if you read properly)... to tell the truth, i was confused with my feelings towards... (as my sisters name him...) ewww..... (thx to eeeeee)... i thought he had feelings for me... coz he treated me really nice. [n i was really really really happy when i was with him. (he's freaking funny la please...)] but then i asked someone. and that someone cleared the fog for me. there's nothing on. ^___________^... was really relieved. he's sooo not like mouse... (which is kinda my dream guy... with less lemak..)

so.. then i wrote a comment there, coz i felt that i know what i was feeling after a few days. i'm juz not into him. soooo not my type...

but... i have to say... (now) i'm confused again....

HELP babes!!! >__________<

i [still] miss the good old days when we had lunch n dinner together. atleast i can tell ya'll bout my confused-ness straight away instead of ya'll reading it in my blog... come back dear good old days!!!

EXAM=GRAVE...

have been stuffing my poor brain with TITAS. can we not take this not-really-useful-to-our-future-and-might-hurt-our-cgpa-badly-subject? anyway, luckily there'll be 8 questions from tamadun china... so short yet so.. em... scoreful?

today's exam, n 2 in the morning i'm still wide awake... muz be the coke... the fries didn't make me sleepy at all!!! voon!!! >________<

i keep listening to this song by S.H.E called "dun want to be your friend". (不做你的朋友）. for dunno what reason. seems to be in love with it.

anyway... suddenly, after my exams, i have to go to this camp. i am so not the right person to go.. but what to do... no1 else wants to go... for the sake of the chinese... *sighs*

anyway... ewwwww would be there... n voon... n jason.c ... it should be nice.

had dinner with voon's family juz now... (19th april). they brought us to this restaurant in SS20. great food!!! >________< chinese food!!! her dad is going to penang next month...
i hope i can go too... T----------T

freedom seems so far away...

thanks

well...
today,
i went to midvalley

the babes can't go with me
so i asked the dudes...

and then there were 2.

we watched the 11a.m show of
the fast and the furious 4
(was a little disappointed)

when we went in
the whole cinema was still empty
so we sat there
and talked.

straight after the movie
we went to mcdonald's.
he grabbed a burger
and we headed to our next destination

red box.

we got a huge room.
those for like 10 people.

and we were 2.

it was very very cold in there.
it was really fun.
froze our asses off
while singing our hearts out too.

actually i did most of the singing.

i really enjoyed...
except the freezing my ass off part.

after that,
we had dinner
in the gardens
the "stall's" name is
i love Yoo.
sells porridge.
cheap but taste nice.

then we went to the arcade
and we played time crisis 4.
my first time playing the 4th version
he was really good.
almost went through the whole game
without using up all the chances.

anyway,
after that,
we went grocery shopping
then finally we came back.
there weren't much taxis
and not a bus.

waited for half an hour
before we finally got into a cab.

had to say sorry to voon n jason
coz we brought their dinner back
really late.

anyway,
i wanna say thanks to that someone
again,
he was there when the babes weren't.
you made my day.

i loved today,
love you too.

not in a romantic way though...
^___________^

i'm sure you know it.

i hope i do too....

f*cking friday... and... saturday.

last friday,
i went to class.
i don't have class on fridays
but that day
i did.

class was supposed to be
from 8 to 11.
and we were suppose
to go to the museum
with another lecturer
and his other class.

ended up us sitting there till 12.30
not going to the museum.

after class,
i went to midvalley.
the other babes were already there.
waited for a taxi for so f*cking long

finally,
took a taxi
and was stuck in a F*cking jam.
cost me rm7
from um there.
usually it only costs rm4++.

got there
(finally)
and met with them.
was really upset
coz according to the meter
it was only rm 6++
but the driver didn't have change
neither did i
so i have to pay more
because the f*cking driver
didn't have change.

we ate lunch there,
cost rm14++
it was quite nice.
i liked the appetizer.
then went shopping.
some of the girls left early.

bought 2 new singlets in F.O.S
and 2 new shorts too.
all for rm70.
it was buy 1 get 1 free
i spotted a pair of shorts
but can't find the f*cking size
for other colours.
so i ended up buying 2 pair of
the shorts that look exactly the same.
f*cK!

after that,
went back to college,
had dinner
and went for malam juara-juara
of FESEni UM.
f*cking boring.
i don't think the pop band winners
deserve the win.
they were f*cking boring.
the f*cking acoustic too.

left before the show even reached half way
and went to 3rd mamak.
2 fast 2 furious was on!!
didn't get to watch it...
T--------T

yesterday,
i was suppose to go
for a charity walk.
but i didn't.
ate toast
went to 12th for a meeting
came back for lunch

watched hellboy2 for the second time in a month
painted my nails.
craved for kfc.
voon n susan went back d.
the others don't want to go.
so i ended up
going with the guys
luckily i still have them.
they could cheer me up
anytime,
anywhere.
when we started walking, it was raining, heavily.
but before we reached edu fac,
the rain already stopped.

it was really fun to go out with them.
i had a great time there.

thx guys.
love ya'll!!
>________<