twas the night... before

‘twas the night before Chinese new year.
I went to my uncle’s house to have the reunion dinner. Had a sip of wine, some tong poh meat, some fish balls, some chicken claws, and a good time.
Talked to my cousin.
Didn’t know that he was such a stereotype.
The way he talked…. Urrrhhhh….
Anyway…
Came home at about 9,
Cleaned the remaining things that needs cleaning,
My sis mopped the floor,
Dad fixed the light,
Younger sis brake a light bulb,
Got scolded.
I got a whole lot of messages wishing me a
Prosperous Chinese new year.
Thanks guys!
Confirmed the date of my reunion with my friends.
First we decided to go to tao.
Bro was too poor so we changed to plan b,
Which was actually plan a.
We’re going for lok lok or chiam chiam.
Not sure yet.
Any suggestions ppl?
Anyway,
I’m starting to miss some ppl.
My seven sistas,
College mates,
The guys,
*Ahem* too.
How is your Chinese new year?
See ya’ll soon!!

tu me manque!!!

i miss talking to you,
i miss eating with you,
i miss laughing at you,
i miss laughing with you,
i miss laughing for you,
i miss looking at you,
i miss peeping at you,
i miss sitting with you,
i miss cheering for you,
i miss walking with you,
i miss looking at your back,
i miss watching you play ball,
i miss hearing your deep voice,
i miss thinking too much for you,
i miss saying that you're too thin,
i miss the quietness when i'm with you,
i miss trying to catch up when walking with you,



but most of all,
i miss you... tu me manque... comme fue!!

i'm hot in red!!!

it's been awhile.



i attended a camp for the past weekend (2-4th Jan).

i loved it.

it was a camp for our college's project- pesta kebudayaan bestari interaction camp..

for 3 days i didn't have more than 5 hours sleep, but i enjoyed it.

not the lact of sleep,

but the camp activities.



all the games are really meaningful and they teach us stuff.

stuff that you might know but take for granted.



one of the games....

i dunno if i should call it a game...

ok, a session,

is when everyone sticks a piece of paper behind them

the paper will be seperated into 2 parts,

"kelebihan" n "kelemahan"

which is the good things about u and the weeknesses.

on my weekness part,

i found that someone wrote there:

"u're hot in red".

i dunno if this is a prank of a joke

but i do feel happy.

someone thinks i'm hot!!! >_________<

anyway

there were a lot of good comments that ppl wrote

about me

and i thank them a lot for telling me all of that.

i really apreciated this session

and i want to thank the committee a lot too.

they slept less than us

but they pulled it through anyway.

i hope they enjoyed the camp as much as i did.




wat a team needs is team work and a great leader.

without that,

nothing will and can be done.

the pkb committee is a team.

we already have a great leader.

work together and we shall succeed.





go pkb!!! kacha!!!

undo it....

can i undo my past?
surely i can't go back,
but is there no way to do that?

like friends,
some of them i've lost contact with.
can't i say hello now and talk to them again?
what would they think of me?

some of them,
we juz grew apart or had a fight.
can't i say sorry now and start all over again?
will it be like one republics song? too late to apologize?

what if i talked to my ex,
or sent a message to him.
what would he think?
i haven't talked to him for 5 years already.
would he think that i'm trying to get back with him?
or would he still remember me?

we were young then,
and he,
he's not the guys who remembers,
not me.
i'm juz plain jane.
i'm no hot chick,
i'm no smart ass,
i'm no drama queen....

the truth is,
i did.
....sent my ex a message
i mean. i asked him how was he.
his answer was

"juz like that... ha ha"

what the heck!!
that makes me look pathetic huh....

the truth is,
i made a mistake.
i didn't know him good enough.
we were young and naive.
at least i was.

i think i loved him.
maybe i just like to see him,
like the idea of him being by my side,
as my boyfriend.
maybe that was it.
but i was sure i cried my heart out
when he dumped me.
maybe it was the truth that hurt me,
not him.
the truth was i was single again and he won't be mine.
not anymore.

i changed,
a lot since then.
i tried to make myself more attractive
know more people,
socialize more.
i got over him,
got over the idea of him not being mine anymore

but now,
i feel that
it's partly my fault that he dumped me.
i didn't know him well enough.
i tried to undo that.

now,
still trying.

i don't want to be that stupid girl who wasn't even remembered by her ex-boyfriend!!!!
NOT ANYMORE!!!

this is it!!!

this is it!

this is what i want to say.
u might not know who i am
but i'm surely here to stay.
i'm not good at rhyming
i'm not good at talking
i'm might not be good at anything
i juz want to speak up....
this is what i have to say.