what the heck happened?!

nothing serious actually....

juz wanna make the title interesting so that ppl would read.

it was M.A.B phase 1
last saturday,
the day after friday the 13th.

we thought we were going to wear skirt n blouse
but
turned out that i dun have a long enough skirt
so...
i ended up wearing a sari
(Indian traditional costume)
coz the other babes were waiting upstairs,
i went to the dining hall first.

the first picture that i took in a sari
was with soon loong....
who looked like my dad. "P
he's wearing an indian traditional costume too.
^_____________^

since i was waiting there alone,
i took a *few* more pictures.

love my nails in this pic..


the food

after they finally came,
it was almost the time we were waiting for!!
...almost.

everything happened quite quickly
the opening ceremony,
the eating,
the performances,
the ending.

after that,
it was the time of susan...

SS TIME!!!voon n ming who blended well
with the curtains..man tao a.k.a phoebe n mei like this pic alot!!!
>____________<ming, voon n methe babes go cultural.kuo ning, the super senior!!!

to whom it may concern...

pkb's finally over.
been feeling like sheet this few days.
maybe it's the lack of sleep
maybe it's something else.
now that i'm free,
i have some thought that i'd like to express.

to whom it may concern:

i did my best in pkb,
though i dun think it's good enough for you.
i don't really care how you think right now
coz you're already out of view.

to whom it may concern:

i know i've been a beach recently
but that's something i can't control.
i think it's coz i'm feeling bad,
maybe it's coz i'm not feeling whole.
i'm sorry i treated you guys badly,
saying things that i don't mean,
but if six sense i do not lack,
i feel that some of you are backstabbing me,
saying things behind my back.
i feel something's wrong
like i'm always the 1 who's left out,
i told you things about me,
but the things i know about all of you,
my fingers are enough to count.
i don't like this feeling,
it feels like high school all over again,
i thought i have friends
but i guess it's just a lost game.

to whom it may concern:

i feel that we're not 8 anymore.
it's the 6 of us and the 2 of you.
i don't mind friends that are better friends in the group
but i feel awkward when you both are together.
i feel that there's a gap between us all
and you both when we're together.

to the same whom it may concern:

i know you're still here,
but i feel that you're not here anymore.
i feel like i've lost a friend,
a friend that i used to enjoy being with.
now when i'm with you both,
i juz want to disappear.
i feel like my presence is too much,
like a fish between a bunch of flowers,
but i really miss talking to you,
like yesterday when we were the 8 of us.
i don't want to talk about this face to face
coz i know i'll surely cry
however hard i control my tears,
they'll always fall from the corner of my eyes.

i don't like loosing,
games, things or friends alike,
but now i feel like i've lost to life
a failure that's overtaken by satan's pride.

to whom it may concern:

don't talk to me about this when you see me
i don't want to talk about it
i just want to express my feelings here,
it's better here
than my blog in friendster.
juz read this through and think about what i say
it's ok if u think it's fine
to stay the way as it is.
just let this post remain here in this blog,
it's just what jf wants to say.

run!!!

run baby run
don't ever look back...


i wish i could

run away from this life

right now.

everything is taking my life away.

french,

pkb,


mouse.

after spending some time with you,
i feel like i've been poisoned.

to you:
stop showing me your good side!!
i know there's something bad about you!!
everyone has one.
show it!!!
stop making me fall deeper and deeper into this bottomless pit.
i so long
that out of this vast darkness,
a hand would appear
and tell me where to go,
pull me out,
stop me from this plunge into nothingness.

shake me, wake me up, and tell me
"it's juz a nightmare!!!"

every breath i take
misery seems to be what i take in

where is the air that i need?

talk to me,

look at me,

i'm here,
but am bout to disappear.

say it isn't so.
i don't understand how everything works. tell me stories. take me to a world that i don't belong. maybe i would be happy when i come back here... if i ever do.

say that you care
that you still want me here,

and please
mean it.

valentine's, the day before and after.... cont.. cont...

ok...
it's been awhile.
the day after valentine's.

i still had a match against 12th.
it was horrible.
we lost,
terribly.

there was a player
with a really fat as*
and an extremely big mouth.
she reminds me of a rhino.
big and rough.
you'll fly off if she has any body contact with her.

even the guys.
name's jolene.
but so dam* diff from the singer.

anyway...
after the match,
we took a few photos.
changed jersey with louise.
she always wanted number 7.
because of *ahem*...
someone.

i took it coz it's my lucky number.
turns out that it's not that lucky after all.

went for lunch in ss2,
went back to college.

washed some clothes,
rested.

went out to midvalley at 4.30.
with soon loong,
only,
again.

he's a really funny person.
kinda like him.

in a non-romantical way.
he'll make a really good best friend.
^__________^

back to the point.

we ate gelatimo ice-cream.
cookies.
love the flavour.
cs would die if she even smells it.
very cheesy.
literally.

after that,
went back to college.

forgot what i did that night...

anyway.
who cares about the day after valentine's?
seriously,
not a person.
unless it's someone's birthday....

how was your valentine's?

valentine's, the day before and after.... cont..

so...

now let's talk about my valentine's.
valentine's day
always make me think of a song of celine dion.
i'm not sure of the name
but i think it's called
"it's all coming back to me...."

the mv is about someone's someone who dies in a car accident
on valentine's

or is it
"my valentine"...?

anyway...
let's come back to
my valentine... shall we?

it was juz another day.

voon said that valentine's is actually
S.A.D

take note:
it's not SAD,
it's S.A.D.

Single. Awareness. Day

it's the day when all the singles are
fully aware of their status..
single as in single and available.
not single but dating...

so,
that single morning,
i woke up single at 8 something.
can't go back to sleep.
i was too nervous about the single match that was going to happen
later in that single afternoon...
went online single and geo-challenged.
got a single high score!!!
yay!!! >__________<

after that,
went to had single lunch with all my single sistas,
after that,
went geo-challenging again and hit another single high score!!!
yay!!!... again...

about 2,
went down to the lobby n saw my
unsingle coach checking his hair do on the single cc board.
then waited there for the other
single and unsingle team mates.
took a long time
till we finally got to the single gym 1.
played the single game against 7th college
and lost 24-12.
sorry coach,
we let you down....


went back single and sad
bathed,
washed my jersey singly,
went to voon's room
and watched the single video
of our single match.

went to kfc with the single sistas
had dinner there,
talked about our coach and there he was,
unsingle with his gf...
DO NOT talk behind ppl's back
before you check if the person's around...

after that,
walked a single journey back to 4th.
onlined singly.
went to the unsingle badminton court single
and played with the fire crackers?... fire works?


we laughed our single heads off
had a jolly single good time!!!

laid on the court
and watched the single unstarry sky
no stars on valentine's
i guess all the stars are in the unsingle girls' eyes
"ur eyes are like the stars in the night sky"
it means u look like a spider...
you have lots of eyes.

anyway...
who care's about valentine's?
the ppl who do business do...
if u love someone,
everyday is special
if u r going to get rid of someone,
do it before valentine's
don't spend money and time on someone you don't love...
anymore.

the thing about love,
is that you'll never see it coming...
(say it again, marie digby)



like that stupid roddent...