mornin rain

love it when it rains in the morning.

clears the air and the sky.

cried my heart out yesternight.

didn't know how long,

but it seemed like a very long night.

juz can't stop my tears.

i needed to talk to someone who i don't see everyday.

and the first person i reached out to ignored me.

i'm juz sick of doing everything by myself.

sick of being so alone.

can't find people who love what i love.

always me against the world.

but i wanna thank Chi Yee and Dawn.

especially Dawn.

she really helped me alot.

after talking to her,

i finally get to stop my tears.

i finally know what i'm gonna do after i get outta this hell.

i'm gonna work in europe as a nanny.

might sound funny,

but i get paid and travel and learn at the same time.

languages, culture.

and i get to get out of this country.

come back once in awhile and see if there's any changes.

there is certainly nothing to hold me back,

except my parents.

i'm gonna leave this sad place coz i can't find a reason to stay.

my parents will understand.

that's wat J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~