The wayward blogger

You might (or might not) have noticed that I've been blogging less.
I usually have at least 1 blog post every week.
And I've had almost 2 weeks of hiatus before this.

The truth is, I finally realized what went wrong (with me)(as a blogger).
And I was busy with work and was quite lazy too. 


I got caught up in the blogsphere.

I used to be a very carefree blogger. I write because I want to and because I can.

Then suddenly a lot of events came along,
and I lost my direction and I didn't realize that I didn't know what I was doing.

I didn't like what I was turning into, which is I'm sorry to say, what a lot of bloggers are.
When someone said "every blogger wants to be famous" I finally realize what my problem was.
I was suddenly blogging for the wrong reasons.

My blog views increased 100% over the past 2 months or so,
and I was really glad.
I was accepted into the "blogger gang" and I was invited to events.
I was getting "more popular".

But that made me into more of an attention whore than ever.
I started spamming social media.
I started posting everything on Instagram and Twitter like it was the voice in my head.
I linked all my social media together.
When I posted something, on Instagram, for example, my Twitter and Facebook, and even my blog will be updated

with the same things.

Which is quite redundant after I took a step back and looked.

I was practically hard selling (a.k.a shoving) my life into everyone's life and up their noses.

And suddenly, I realize that's not ME.

I used to be such a privacy loving person.
And suddenly I want all the attention I can get.

I've always known the way to fame as a female blogger, which is what I noticed, has become a trend.
To become a "famous blogger" if you are a girl, you just have to:
1. Be pretty
2. Show skin. A lot. Cleavage will always be good.

If you have the above criteria, even if you lack writing skills or even common grammatical knowledge, people will still visit your blog. Looks matter. Very true story.

Since I'm neither an extremely attractive girl, nor a girl who chooses to show cleavage,
I'm practically "struggling to become a famous blogger".

But then, why? Why am I struggling to become a famous blogger
when I can be "just a blogger"?

Fame and fortune is not what I really wanted when I started my blog.
If it comes, I'm more than glad to grab it,
but if it doesn't, blogging is something I love to do.
I shouldn't be working hard to sell my blog.
(I'm not saying that it's wrong to do it, but I choose not to.)

I shouldn't be trying to befriend the PR to get invites so that I have more events to cover,
I shoulnd't be trying to befriend other bloggers because at one point, they might be able to help me.

I should be a genuine friend. Which is what I was looking for when I first joined the "blogger gang".
I wanted friends instead of someone that can help me in the blogsphere.

The blogsphere is at times, too complicated for me.

You see bloggers, sometimes, saying one thing to you and another on their blog.
They think a product sucks, but they still give it good reviews
because they were chosen to review them.

You see bloggers, sometimes, befriending people
just because they foresee that you can be some sort of use to them in the future.
It's like a "you scratch my back, I scratch your back" kinda thing,
but they don't ask if your back is itchy in the first place.
They scratch it first, and now you "owe them",
so you should do something in return.

I'm not saying that people should take help for granted,
if I helped you, it would be nice to show gratitude. A simple "thank you" would be great.
But I don't expect you to help me in return for my help.
It would be nice if you can help, but it's fine if you can't.

Now, I just want to go back to being "just a blogger".
I will join whatever events I want, write posts whenever I feel like it.
I don't want to instagram whatever I eat, tweet about my whereabouts all the time.
I want to sincerely be friends with people, and I would like the same in return.
I want to know people for the sake of friendship, instead of to get more connections.

I've dropped all links between my Twitter, Facebook and Instagram,
so if you really care, please follow each of them separately.

Blogging shouldn't be stressful, if you really love it.

For those who still chose to come back,
sorry for the lack of cleavage.

So here,
compensation.

Thanks for still clicking on my link.

That's what J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~
p.s. If you feel burnt, feel free to apply room temperature water on wound. Don't use cold water because you'll get blisters.

Just a friendly reminder.

I didn't mean to burn btw. Just in case someone terasa.

H-Artistry Finale 2012

The finale of H-Artistry Trilogy 2012 was held in MIECC on 3rd November.

And I was there!! =D 

We got there quite late,

but it was actually just nice

because right after we got through the entrance,

we saw these bad boys coming through.

 Block B, one of the performers that night.

They walked right past us.

If I was a crazy fan I could have grabbed one of them.

Their skin were so fair and smooth I feel ashamed. Pffftttttttt.

The way towards the party is draped in red.

The waiting hall this time had DJs spinning,

so it was like a pre-party to warm everyone up.

Drinks were served as usual.

The famous 360 cam.

We didn't manage to take a picture this time because the line was really long when we reached.

The stage right at the entrance.

I was quite excited with the stage.

Because unlike the other 2 H-Artistry stages that were next to the wall, 

this one is right in the middle of the hall and can be seen from all corners.

We were in Zone O that night, and the above was our view of the stage.

 Block B were the first to take the stage.

Their songs were not bad, and it was unlike other catchy Korean songs.

They spoke to the crowd in Korean though.

I would prefer if we actually understood what they were saying.

I mean,

as performers, 

they should actually speak in a language which the audience could understand.

Alexandra Burke was next to heat up the crowd,

and she did that quite well.

It was during her performances when I got carried away.

The Hennessy Berry was so nice

I took a little too many. =X

But hey, we were at H-Artistry Finale yo!!

It's supposed to be wild and fun!!

Another Korean group who performed. EVOL.

I didn't take a lot of pictures that night,

because I suck that way.

So,

I borrowed pictures from my babes. 

Me, Charmaine, Kahmon a.k.a Bendan, Hui Min, and Iris, who was the only one wearing white in this pic. 

*cough*oddoneout*cough*

And if you're wondering why Kahmon and Iris aren't looking at the camera,

no they're not pretending to be looking away,

they're looking at the flip out screen.

Iris, Charmaine et moi.

I pretty much spend my whole conscious night with these two.

Especially Charmaine.

She was around me all night,

taking care of me. 

Kahmon, Iris, me and Charmaine

Unfortunately my plus one went missing the whole night
after entering.
Didn't even bothered to come over and take a picture.
tsk tsk tsk.

I know there are people who are unhappy with the event,

but hey, you can't please everyone right?

To me, the people you hang out with decides how good the party was.

If you have a bunch of great people around you,

you could go on partying regardless the environment.

I definitely had fun this round. 

More fun that the previous 2.

At least now when I look back,
I have a lot to laugh about.

This was my first year going to any and all 3 of the H-Artistries,

and I got to know a few new friends, met up with some old ones, and enjoyed myself. 

It's a whole new adventure compared to my boring behind-the-desk-life,

and I was really glad I was invited.

Can't wait for the ones next year,

so H-Artistry 2013, yes, all 3 of you, just bring it on!!

That's what J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~