Insecure

I miss the time spent together

I miss the time of laughter

that are so far away gone

and cannot be seen nor found

anywhere in the near future.

Am I alone?

My turn to feel emo?

I have no reason to be emo.

Other than the problem with money.

--___________--lll

I feel like I gained weight.

My face has slightly bloated.

I know the babes will go:

are you serious?

You're so thin.

But no,

just because I'm the thinnest doesn't mean I can't gain weight.

It means I have to most chances of gaining weight.

I want so many things that I don't need

I just want to be beautiful in the eyes of others

Suddenly I feel so insecure without my long hair.

I feel that I'm so boyish right now

People really look twice when they see me.

I need my long hair back.

I need a hug.

And someone to talk to.

about anything.

that's what J_Fish has to rant about~ Au Revoir~

p.s. it's 11/1/11 today, a special date. Was it special for you?

Super friend

Sometimes I really wish that I have a super friend.

Like every person with super powers,

my super friend could appear when I am in need of a friend.

Just came back from Fraser Hill.

I went there without any close friend,

came back in the same situation.

Because of my introvert + shy personality

(some people call that no personality)

it's hard for me to open up to people 

and just join in any group of people.

I regret going to the trip alone.

I should stab my stupid conscience to death

and chuck it into the fire.

It was the reason I decided to go 

even when I knew I was gonna be alone.

I thought I could make new friends,

well I got to know some names,

but I wouldn't say I know them.

Back to a super friend.

Well,

I totally need one.

This friend doesn't even need to be by my side all the time,

but when trouble comes,

or when I'm feeling lonely,

this friend would appear and just sit by my side so that I know I'm not alone.
Someone who wouldn't feel tired 
or get bored with me.

Someone to eat with me 

when everyone else's busy or not feel like eating,

someone to chat with when I'm feeling emo,

someone to tell my problems to.

I need a person who I can tell my every secret and feeling and thought.

Most importantly someone who wouldn't feel ashamed to hang out with me

because I'm different.

Of course
I am a super friend.
Any friend who needs a friend can tell me.
I'll be there for you. <3

But then,

I realize I already have a super friend.

Meet my super friend.

ME!!!!

I so look like a super cool boy here.

XD

that's what J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~


p.s. Someone definitely enjoyed the trip... ahem ahem