to whom it may concern...

pkb's finally over.
been feeling like sheet this few days.
maybe it's the lack of sleep
maybe it's something else.
now that i'm free,
i have some thought that i'd like to express.

to whom it may concern:

i did my best in pkb,
though i dun think it's good enough for you.
i don't really care how you think right now
coz you're already out of view.

to whom it may concern:

i know i've been a beach recently
but that's something i can't control.
i think it's coz i'm feeling bad,
maybe it's coz i'm not feeling whole.
i'm sorry i treated you guys badly,
saying things that i don't mean,
but if six sense i do not lack,
i feel that some of you are backstabbing me,
saying things behind my back.
i feel something's wrong
like i'm always the 1 who's left out,
i told you things about me,
but the things i know about all of you,
my fingers are enough to count.
i don't like this feeling,
it feels like high school all over again,
i thought i have friends
but i guess it's just a lost game.

to whom it may concern:

i feel that we're not 8 anymore.
it's the 6 of us and the 2 of you.
i don't mind friends that are better friends in the group
but i feel awkward when you both are together.
i feel that there's a gap between us all
and you both when we're together.

to the same whom it may concern:

i know you're still here,
but i feel that you're not here anymore.
i feel like i've lost a friend,
a friend that i used to enjoy being with.
now when i'm with you both,
i juz want to disappear.
i feel like my presence is too much,
like a fish between a bunch of flowers,
but i really miss talking to you,
like yesterday when we were the 8 of us.
i don't want to talk about this face to face
coz i know i'll surely cry
however hard i control my tears,
they'll always fall from the corner of my eyes.

i don't like loosing,
games, things or friends alike,
but now i feel like i've lost to life
a failure that's overtaken by satan's pride.

to whom it may concern:

don't talk to me about this when you see me
i don't want to talk about it
i just want to express my feelings here,
it's better here
than my blog in friendster.
juz read this through and think about what i say
it's ok if u think it's fine
to stay the way as it is.
just let this post remain here in this blog,
it's just what jf wants to say.