A time to be patient and persevere

There's a time for everything,
and now is the time for me to believe that everything will turn out better
and I will make it through this effing storm.

I'm not doing well right now.
I've never been good at planning,
and it's getting right back at me.

I feel like such a loser
coz I'm a working adult
and I can't even afford my basic needs.
It sucks when you want to live your dream,
but reality wins anyway.

I have to either change my lifestyle,
or find a new job that can offer more.

For me,
the latter is easier.
Especially when I just started not long ago.
It's not too late to turn away.

It's hard to persevere
when you have a friend who keeps brainwashing you
about other higher paying jobs out there.

And you feel like you're so stupid for persevering
because you know what he said is the truth,
and you're being stupid for staying.
There are plenty of better paying jobs out there,
why am I here?

Because I wanna do something that is related to languages.

But in the end of the day,
I need money to survive,
to have a good life.

Not just enough money to survive through the month
and rely on credit cards and loved ones when something happens
and I need money.

I shall persevere and be patient.
Until the deadline comes.
In about a month's time from now,
I shall make my decision.

that's what J_Fish has to say~ Au Revoir~
p.s.  I really miss Uni life,
but no matter what I do,
I can't go back.
Not yet.


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